Overthinker...

I have this bad habit, it's been getting a lot worse as of lately, of over-thinking the most minor, insignificant things. I've always been one of the awkward, self-conscious types, but it really only comes through after I've made a slip-up or mistake of some sort. 

It's not the mistake itself that makes me feel so self conscious, rather it's the concept of what people may think of me. I just have a terrible habit of taking any minor slip I make and elevating it to the grandest of all proportions in my head. I may say something that was a tad bit too harsh or do something that comes off as a wee bit too stupid and end up fearing that whoever witnessed the event will suddenly feel compelled to end all contact with me. 

The last few days have been great to me, I've gotten a chance to do so much in such a short period of time, all while spending time getting to know people that I genuinely love to be around. Yet at the same moment, I feel nervous that I have made a mistake around them and don't know it yet. If I haven't yet, will I? When will I do it? And will it ('it' meaning the mistake or its possible consequences) really be as bad as my mind makes it out to be?

much respect,

josh

ps: On a COMPLETELY unrelated note, I've got a ticket for the Purdue v. Iowa game tomorrow at Kinnick Stadium. If you want it, send me an email (agentj28@aol.com).